By Leo Babauta
When weâ€™re trying to change our habits and our lives, even if you have some success, youâ€™ll notice two longer-term difficulties:
- Habit efforts get sidetracked, you are constantly in a state of transition, things are always in flux, and it can all feel completely out of control. What you really want is a sense of stability and consistency, but you canâ€™t seem to find it. So the common question is: how do I develop discipline to be more consistent without all kinds of starts and stops and constant flux?
- Or maybe youâ€™re doing relatively well, developing one habit after another, but then your life seems to be pretty full, and the question becomes: how do I fit all of these habits into my life? I want to exercise, meditate, cook healthy food, read every morning, declutter, focus on top of my important tasks, write every day, stay on top of email and messages, spend some time outdoors, sketch every day â€¦ thereâ€™s just not enough time when you factor in eating, chores, showering, etc!
So what do these two problems have in common? They might seem like two different problems: one person feels like everything is a mess, and the other just wants to find the right order for everything theyâ€™re trying to fit in their life.
The common factor is that things donâ€™t feel like theyâ€™re in order, and thereâ€™s a sense of uncertainty and chaos/disorder that causes some anxiety/stress.
The solution to both problems is the same, then:
- Realize that this disorder and chaos is actually the normal for this process.
- Accept that uncertainty and disorder, and relax into them.
- Stay with your intention despite the chaos. Keep pushing into the discomfort with it, going forward, while being compassionate for any missteps or interruptions.
In the end, itâ€™s like herding cats â€” things are going to be disorderly, and if you accept that and relax into it, youâ€™ll have a lot less stress while still trying to get the cats to go in the right direction.
Letâ€™s talk about the disorder and chaos, and how to accept the fact of them â€¦ and then talk about how to herd the cats (basically, herding our lives!).
Accepting & Relaxing Into the Disorder of Our Lives
When things are up in the air, it can feel like weâ€™re in transition. â€œOnce I get past this trip/project/illness/visit from my inlaws â€¦ then everything will settle down!â€
But hereâ€™s the truth: our lives are always in transition. Thereâ€™s always messiness. Thereâ€™s always going to be something interrupting our set habits, schedule, routines. There is always disorder. Weâ€™ll always feel uncertainty because of all of that chaos.
This is the simple fact of our lives. And yet, we want order. We want simple answers. We want the perfect daily routine, the perfect set of habits, the smooth ride of a Japanese bullet train (shinkansen).
This desire for order, simplicity, consistency and perfection in the face of the reality of disorder, complications, interruptions and messiness is the cause of our anxiety, stress, disappointment with ourselves, struggle and frustrations.
Letâ€™s be clear about that: we cause our own difficulties and stress simply by not accepting the way things are. We are the cause of the anxiety and frustration, not any external factors. This isnâ€™t something to feel shame about, but rather a fact to rejoice: we have the power to remove that stress by simply accepting the true nature of our lives.
Things are always in transition. Things will always be messy and disordered.
And thatâ€™s not a problem.
Itâ€™s nothing to worry about.
Itâ€™s actually a thing of beauty. Think of nature: itâ€™s not straight lines and smoothness, itâ€™s chaos and random growth, itâ€™s blooms and disruption, adaptation and flow. It is so beautiful, because of its disorder.
Once we see the beauty in the disorder of our lives, we can accept it and relax into it. Instead of struggling and holding tightly to our ideals, we can relax our grip, relax our bodies, and just breathe. Loosen our hold on how we wish things were, and just be in the middle of the chaos in a relaxed open awareness.
Relax into the disorder. Itâ€™s a warm jacuzzi of a bath.
How to Herd Cats (or Work with the Disorder of Our Lives)
So weâ€™re accepting, weâ€™re relaxing, weâ€™re enjoying the beauty of it all. Wonderful! Now what?
How do we herd the disorder of our lives in some semblance of a direction? How do we herd the cats to go somewhere weâ€™d like them to go?
If we accept that weâ€™re herding cats and not trying to run a smooth bullet train ride, we can work with the chaotic nature of the cats. We know cats arenâ€™t going to follow directions or go on a schedule. We know the nature of cats, and to expect them to be a bullet train is ridiculous.
With that in mind, letâ€™s talk about a method of herding cats (the disorder of our lives):
- Set an intention. Think of this as a direction youâ€™d like to head in. You want your life to go in the direction of better health â€¦ so you have an intention to take care of your health with exercise and a diet full of veggies.
- Start herding the cats in that direction. Intention is nothing without action. So start moving things in that direction â€” it might mean setting reminders, asking for support from family, putting notes to yourself around the house, having your running shoes next to your bed, finding a workout partner, finding some good healthy recipes, etc.
- Try to keep the cats going in the right direction. Continue to try to keep your intention, for as long as you can. Things will go astray (weâ€™re herding cats here, câ€™mon), but for as long as you can, keep them going in the right direction. Keep adding more structure, reminders, accountability, rewards, etc.
- When things go astray (they will), donâ€™t get bothered by it. Itâ€™s a part of the process. Relax into it, and just start again. Yep, you herd me (har!). Just start again, going back to Step 1.
Thereâ€™s no Step 5. You just keep setting that intention, keep taking action to go in the right direction and stay on track, and when things go astray, relax and donâ€™t be bothered, but continue the process. Itâ€™s not really â€œstarting againâ€ actually, but just continuing the herding.
Itâ€™s that simple. When things go astray, itâ€™s not a problem. Thereâ€™s never a problem, itâ€™s all just beautiful chaos with a loving intention.
What about the 2nd person (from the beginning of this article), who wants to find the perfect order of habits and routines? They are herding the cats of their day â€” there isnâ€™t a perfect order, itâ€™s just continually experimenting, continually trying new habits, continually learning what works and what doesnâ€™t (and what works this month might be different than last month).
Think of the habits and routines and tasks and chores of your day/week as the cats youâ€™re herding, in this case. They donâ€™t want to be put in order. You can try to organize, which is totally fine, but just donâ€™t stress too much about getting things in the right order, organized properly. Just herd the chaos of your day, with loving intention. Learn to love the flow, instead of wanting things to be set.
The wild flow of our lives is a thing of heartbreaking beauty and joy.